Musings

Here she is. At the edge of the continent. Edge of the world. Edge of a dream. A vision of luminous experiences…real and imaginary blending together, yet begrudgingly so like oil and water.

Seeking. Wretching. Questioning. Delighting. Quietly observing the sparkle and opulence side by side with filth and poverty. Who is she? Who is anybody? What lies buried? Behind the mask. Behind the smoke and mirrors. Behind the rusty cage that has locked the heart and thrown away the key.

The chaos unfolds around us as we cling desperately to each other. Or to our differences. Anything that makes us feel alive.

I don’t want to come back to Earth!
I am grounded just fine here in the clouds…
The purple sky whispers stories
Of faraway lands that sparkle and tease.
Desert dances and twinkling stars
Echo in my soul.
Traversing this life takes me to many places.
Mountains rise up around me.
They boast ancient tales
And remind us we are small.
I refuse to be turned away by
Promises of discomfort.
Fear has no chance when
Pitted against my adventurous soul.
I will step on unturned soils.
I will laugh at the Splendor.

I must feed my spirit.
I will not let it dry up.

Raindrops of experiences
And conversations…
A shower of clarity.
The very existence of consciousness
Creates ripples in the
Pool of humanity.
Twirl with me through this life.
For fulfillment is not a choice,
But our Destiny.

Sailing along on this velvet sea of life.
Reveling in the splendor.
Weeping tears of heartbreak and happiness.
Twirling and dancing to the music of soul.
Being the strange dreamy mess that I am.
Begrudged by my hindrances.
Preparing for a new adventure…

I am a mermaid that was fished out of the ocean
Of her own thoughts and actions
Her tangled tresses still entwined
With nefarious dangers of the sea
Forever infused with the darkness of the deep
A light inside propelled me up to the tide

Been pushing for change
Finally landed here in this place
You say you want the world
I just want to create
Living inside of a dream
Vividly inspired by the things I’ve seen
My mind is lifted
My consciousness shifted
I know my desires are within reach
Everytime I drive by the beach
I want to see the world
Feel this energy swirl
Sweet dewy drops of life
Kissing my skin, seeping in
Life and spirituality,
Death and debauchery
Robots, redwoods, alchemy
I want to write about it all
Pensive lady ridin’ til she falls
Step into my zone
A cataclysmic brain filled with undertones
Flooded with ideas I intend to prosper
Radiate my fire see what these times will offer
In all these seemingly coincidences
Not manipulating what the story is
A little phoenix
Rising from her own filthy ashes
Reading in between the lines
And erasing them
In awe of the intricacy of creation
It is a beautiful web to be tangled in

Liberated by my exodus
A conduit for this genesis
Radiating that benevolence
Seemingly drawn to juicy decadence
I like it when by vibes tingle
Allow my stardust to sprinkle
Forcing my shy self to mingle
Always remaining hella lingual
Staring up into space
Unlike the others, you can see it in my face
Committing to my own dreamy pace
While blasting my loud ass bass
At times my words are all that I have
That and a big fat bag

How did we get this way
To a point where we are
More comfortable with a
Screen than a soul who loves you
How did we come to resent
Talking to strangers
Hiding behind our phones
Just to avoid conversation
No wonder we’re all pussies
Offended by every fucking word
You tell me you need a “safe space”
My own father was forced into war
Don’t allow society to label you a certain way
Stop victimizing every little thing
If you know who you are
And what you want
Go out and live your life
Leave here if you have to
It’s a big world that offers love
Stop making everything negative
There has been strife, death,
Racism, war, injustice since the
Beginning of time
Do what you can to spread love
But accept our world will never be perfect
Stop acting entitled to being treated
Like you’re holier than others
We are all equal underneath our skin
And many of us will endure hardship
Maybe beaten
Abused
Downtrodden, debilitated by loss
No one deserves any of this
But complaining and causing division
Among our sacred humanity is inefficient
Instead of wasting time bitching
Spend that time talking to and
Understanding your fellow brother
Or sister or whatever the hell they
Want to be called because we are all
One at the end of the day no matter
How much some may dislike it
We are in this TOGETHER
The sooner we toughen up; rise up
And show the hateful bastards
What’s up
The sooner we can really create change
And make this world a better place

Magnetic
Enigmatic
Creatures we walk
This earth alone
Scarred but unafraid
Of this life we’ve been shone
Braving each environment
I feel so challengingly different
Like maybe I am an experiment
Why don’t I flow like everyone else
I feel so awkward and weird
Just being myself

I didn’t mean to be this way
And I’m not sorry that I cannot stay
Articulation circulation
Having thoughts with syncopation
Moving flowing with an endless groove
I know what I’m gonna prove
My story winds through
All these twists and turns
I’m motivated yet
Still yearn to learn
I do what I can to hone my craft
And in the end I will humbly laugh
A legacy in the making
Future is ours for the taking
I ferociously accept
The goals that live inside my chest
Long ago before I knew anything
But through it all I understood
Fulfillment’s worth experiencing
I am grateful for the sound
These beats and lyrics
Help me hold it down
This alien human kitten
Is inexplicably smitten
With making people smile
By the words I speak
Not giving in
You see I refuse to be weak
Times they change
I ride waves and rearrange
My ambitions stay the same
Be myself and never extinguish my flame

Riding a wave
Going after what I crave
My soul can be weak
But passion on fleeque
I waver in the face of feelings
They tend only to create ceilings
A fiery kitten burning with desire
Reaching out; I aspire to inspire
So easily swept away
Not trying to be swayed
Too real for this masquerade
Heart cut deep with a blade
Healing those cracks
With a killer soundtrack
Actions the creator of this masterpiece
Letting go of toxic vibes; we release
Viewing situations without judgment
Separating from darkness to be abundant
Flowing glowing
Hurting growing
Attempting to stop overthinking
Glistening like a goddess
Powerful, yet the opposite of flawless

I am a strange, strange kitten
I feel awkward around people I don’t know
And people I do know
I play it off well, so
You may have never noticed
I like to drip paints all over canvases
I like to drink whiskey
And listen to music
I like to weave words
And share them with the world
I like to save animals and give them love
Snacks are a blessing..salty ones
I dream bigger than I should
And start 80 projects at a time
Many which remain unfinished
The ocean makes me feel whole
The moon and the tides consume me
Mary Jane and yoga medicate
All my mental and physical pain
I think about myself too much
And I wish I didn’t
I don’t want to go away before my
Contribution to the universe is complete
I am loved
The people close to me are angels
I am a sweet innocent girl
And a big ball of trouble
I’m sick of people I love dying
I like to write about what I’m grateful for
Which is everything
Life is rad
And you are too for reading
The heart on my sleeve

I’ve got a big piece of me that
Radiates darkest of the dark
Lightness abounds amidst
But know I’m about to start
A kind of spiritual warfare
Choosing to escape the influence
That makes me feel like I’m not there
We seem to think truth
Is being hidden from our minds
If we only open up to our consciousness
And let our third eye shine
Accept ourselves nonetheless
Shine shades and progress
Tell me do you want to leave a legacy
How should people remember thee
See I’ve been sitting in this condition
Morphing absorbing and listenin
I notice my eccentricities
Enable me to represent my steez
To be an alien from outer space
Is an honor I don’t care to relate
I tried that for almost 30 years
It only resulted in way too many tears
Accepting I’m a nutcase and strange cat
Emancipated my brain; that’s where I be at
Doing what I can to free my soul
Saying fuck it just let my mind control
Bloom from the garden of the gods
We are the fierceness residing in the dark